Addendum 3000.3: Psychological Evaluation

Mannava: Hi Venkat, how are you feeling?

Krishnamoorthy: Unwell.

Mannava: That's what I hear. Do you want to talk about what happened today?

Krishnamoorthy: (Silent)

Mannava: We don't have to, if you don't want to. We can talk about something else.

Krishnamoorthy: I'm tired, Anand.

Mannava: I understand. This assignment has been stressful on all of—

Krishnamoorthy: It's not, no, it isn't the stress. I've done this before, I've been on… I don't actually know if I've done this before.

Mannava: You have.

Krishnamoorthy: I don't remember it. Any of it. I've been getting these out-of-context feelings, like my body reacting to reflexes it didn't know it had. Everything is so disconnected, and trying to keep it together is… I'm just tired.

Mannava: When did you start feeling this way?

Krishnamoorthy: How long have we been down here? I don't remember. I don't know when, I honestly don't. I wish I could tell you more than that, but I have nothing. I look to that place in my mind and there's something else there— or sometimes nothing at all.

Mannava: What do you mean, something else?

Krishnamoorthy: I've been having other people's dreams, Anand. I see faces I don't recognize, places I know I've never been… or maybe I have. I don't know. How can I know what is real or not, when I can't trust my own mind?

Mannava: Well, maybe I can help you with that, Venkat. We can go over things you think you've forgotten, and I can—

Krishnamoorthy: Don't patronize me. I know you've felt it, Anand. Your mind gets hazy. Parts of you start to slip, your memories grow faint, fading in and out until they're gone, or worse, replaced. You see pasts that aren't yours, experiences that you never lived. You start to become other people, or… nobody at all.

Krishnamoorthy: …between this and the infinite dark I have gazed into, I have made up my mind.